Marathon Melissa

I’ve been steadily dealing with family ’stuff’, schoolwork, and work work for the past who knows how long… I’ve neglected my running - and its seriously time to put a mox nix on this behavior. I’m hoping to go for a run tonight and then one tomorrow morning, and the next and the next - and so on. I’m not going to post my mileage now because I want to feel rewarded when I post it and know that I’ve aleady done it!

Eating wise I’ve been pretty lax lately. Not good for a recovering heavyweight. Okay, I wasn’t huge or anything but I definitely let myself get out of control for a while. Luckily, I haven’t gained any weight in the past 2 months or so - but I haven’t lost either. I was losing pretty steadily too.

So, today is a new day - this hour is a new hour. Here I go, I’m more determined and not allowing the excuses to build anymore. Everyone has their ’stuff’ and why do I time after time, punish myself by revoking my running privileges? I do it every time I get down! Geez Louise!

Well, be back later.

Workout:

• Type: Strength Training
• Date: 12/08/2007
• Time: 19:30:00
• Total Time: 00:57:00.00

I had all intentions of running this evening - little did I know that my gym closes at 7 p.m. on Saturdays.  I usually go in the morning and never pay attention to the operating hours.

So, instead I did 57 minutes of the Accelerated Body Sculpting Pilates video I have (Mari Winsor’s).  I feel like it’s more about strength than flexibility, but I guess it can be considered both.  I posted it under strength, maybe next time I’ll split it.

My abs and but feel pretty tight right now.  This is going to sound really…shallow…I felt so chubby when I was doing pilates!  I kept trying to say mean things to myself about my thighs or whatever else I thought looked pretty gross.  I did my best to block it out, but why do our minds tell us to be so mean to ourselves?  I would never say the things I say to myself (in my head) to, or about anyone else (maybe if they were really mean to me and I was super mad, but I don’t even know about that!).

Anyway, pilates doesn’t give me that “AHHHH” feeling once I’m finished.  I don’t feel any better about myself for sure.  We all have those days I guess.  Ewww!  I am happy I didn’t just lay around and watch tv though, so it’s not all bad.

I’ve been wanting to shed even more weight - and I’m worried that the South Beach diet might not go very well with my running.  I had a friend who did it and she was just fine except for the first few days.  Anybody have any success/horror stories or suggestions for me?  I know fad diets are a no no - but I need to do something before my mind starts beating me up physically instead of just mentally!

So, tomorrow I’ll probably have details of my 6 mile run. 

Be happy – It’s easier to walk around with a smile

Feel healthy – I know my heart’s getting into good shape and I’m losing weight.

Deal with different people – Especially at work, some of these people are really “odd”

Feel smarter and more capable – Just pass me that crossword and watch magic happen

Not worry quite so much – I stomp it out on the treadmill.

Feel like I’ve accomplished something at night – Lights out, so is Melissa – off an dreaming and getting geared up for the next morning’s run.

I don’t know why I ever stopped. Funny how getting down on yourself with family issues and such can make you discipline yourself by taking away things that you actually enjoy!